It seems that I am seeking out my old ways of comfort. So much so that I have decided to stay up at this incredulous hour. I don't think I've willingly stayed up past 4:00AM since March or April. Now I'm doing it because I am in serious conflict within myself.
I'm also super chill, at the moment.
But, I am feeling a significant amount of hesitation. I want to release these feelings, but now I've filled myself with self-doubt. I think I need to...it one day at a time. I guess, it's all baby steps from here. I suppose I'm stuck in a bit of a loop? I've noticed that I'm going through a sort of relapse. I feel absolutely childish. I worry that I haven't learned or grown or that my past issues have manifested into something worse.
I'm also super chill, at the moment.
But, I am feeling a significant amount of hesitation. I want to release these feelings, but now I've filled myself with self-doubt. I think I need to...it one day at a time. I guess, it's all baby steps from here. I suppose I'm stuck in a bit of a loop? I've noticed that I'm going through a sort of relapse. I feel absolutely childish. I worry that I haven't learned or grown or that my past issues have manifested into something worse.
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